Saturday, May 30, 2009
Brighter Future
1:59 PM
It may be a bad day for mie./Or a no day.Super frustrating.Cousin ajak kluar pon disallowed me to go.Sheeshh.Wat can I do.satying at home is already apart of my daily routine.Nowhere can I go except any activities in school or follow mum go market.Things tat I could do.Nothing else.She called and ask wether I wana go anot n support ma anksdare audition dono wat at Kampung Ubi CC.Tk pernah dgr aku n dono at where also.Wanting to go but mum ..................Don wan to elaborate.To them they would know.All shits came out from her mouth.Least thing I could do shut up n cry.I realise who am I.Just a normal person who loves to wonder n dream away.She afraid sumting bad would happen to me if I go alone w/o sister tag along wit mie.Quite dissapointing.If tiz thingy keep continue,then wen is the day she would trust in mie.The sentence she said the way she speak and all,seems like I'm a loser to her.Can say I'm the weakest in tiz family.Every single day,even one purpose,never fails to make mie cry.Crying is bad.Everyday if u cry,one day I can get a high chance to be blind.I don wan tat to be happen.Sumtimes I force myself not to.But words,character n actions are super strong tat easily make mie weak.From there I'm lacking my power tat I had in all tiz while.However only one thing tat I strongest at.Non other then itself patience.Iwan to be like my friends.They can go out.Outing wit friends.Having fun and all.Not mie.When can I have my part.Situation just made me feel sad.Superrrrrrrr saaaaaaaddd.Haixx.Typing soo much only could release the burden things in me.Notin more will happen other thn tat.From last time till now.N I dono wen the last I had tat memories.Just one I aiming for.'Happiness'.?Isit hard to get.Now I know how tricky it is.Until now I still don get it.It was like no game.Seems to be like an advanture.Going through alooooooooot of survivals n finding for the treasure.Atlast I can boost out atleast an example.I dono lah.I'm just finding my way to a brighter future.Am hoping one day will come true.Please.!!Just tat one word will do.No words left I could sae.Tiz post will tell the truth for my behaviour.
Maintaining a sense of lightness and humor,However needing honesty to have trust.
